I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.
Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.
"Shit doesn’t happen - life happens. Things go wrong, people change, & sometimes it feels like you can’t go on. But, in the end, you have to stop blaming everyone else & put it on yourself to be happy, because it’s your life & you have to make it through the hard times to get stronger."
(Source: dirteeedan, via thesexkitten)
You know when sometimes you meet someone so beautiful and then you actually talk to them and five minutes later they’re as dull as a brick? Then there’s other people, when you meet them you think, “Not bad. They’re okay.” And then you get to know them and… and their face just sort of becomes them. Like their personality’s written all over it. And they just turn into something so beautiful
When you fall as fast and as far as I did, you are no longer yourself.
You are blinded by your heart. You breathe him and he’s all you see
when you wake up and lay your head down. Then one day, he’s gone.
The sky crashes down upon you and you change again. You run to the
phone every time it rings, expecting him to be there, to tell you
everything’s going to be alright and that things can be the same as they
used to. You and him, together, forever. But only a dial tone replies to
your pleas. Oh sure…I’ll get over you…I’ll live again. But every time I see
you, the memories of all the wonderful times we spent together flash
through my head and a little piece of me dies.
we really have no control over how we feel do we ? We can’t pick and choose who to like, or what we like ? We may think we do, but we don’t. It’s things that attract us, that some how draws us in like a bond.. that we find ourselves in like with. We don’t get to decide, but we are convinced that it was our choice. Just like the way we convince ourselves that he or she is good for us, when the truth is.. It’s the total opposite. I’m sitting here convinced that I’m okay, and I’m alright.. but why does my heart feel this sudden stop; and this urge like it just wants to cry. I just want to cry. & I’ve been ignoring the feeling.. as if someone stuck their hand inside my chest and started squeezing my heart. That’s what it feels like.
What I’m feeling right now. That moment when you catch your breath right before you cry, I’m holding it in.
Don’t you know that there’s a choice for being good? Do you know that there is a choice to actually being compassionate, realistic and aware of the world’s horrors? Yes, this world is difficult, more than occasionally unsafe and absolutely frightening. You are given every reason to hate this world but does that really mean you must act upon it? What’s the point? What are you deriving from such a violent emotion? Why must you treat anything or anyone different from you like a parasite? Don’t you both have a beating heart, blood pumping in your veins and arms to embrace? Aren’t we all the same at the end of the day, living day by day, trying to survive and make a comfortable life? The paradox of being able to live amongst your own kind and hate them, for not being in the slightest bit like you, is staggering. To say that humans are the worst creatures on this planet is the absolute Truth but I know and ironically, we all know, that there are souls who have thriving humanity in their hearts and that is the Truth too.
I don’t need some rich guy to buy me nice things.. but it’d be nice to be treated out every once in awhile. I don’t need some buff guy to walk me around, but I do need to feel secure in a relationship with you. I mean that in a way where you wouldn’t go out and cheat on me. I don’t need some cool guy, who’s popular, well known, or fancied.. but I do need him to know me. I don’t need some guy who has real nice cars, or car.. but I do need him to have the decency to pick me up every once in awhile. I don’t need a guy who ditches all his friends that are girls, just because of a status change.. but I do hope he realizes I’m his “girlfriend” and the other girls remain just his friends. I don’t mind if he doesn’t have the time to call or text me when he’s busy… but just make sure you can squeeze in a “good morning” or “goodnight” text just to let me know you’ve gotten through the day; that you’re still living. I really don’t mind a lot of things, but you just gotta remind me that I’m yours. & Please never let me forget that I’m worth something to you.. cause if you do.
You’d lose me too.
